Why?

How much more can I take before I break? 

Everything has just been too much over this break. I do not understand why I am subject to every bad thing that could possibly happen right now. I feel like I am suffocating and failing and can never amount to anything good again. It is a horrible feeling. 

My Grandmother's days are possibly numbered.

I feel like my best friend is slipping through my fingers.

My car was hit. I don't have insurance. I don't have ANY money.

I unknowingly committed insurance fraud and have to deal with the aftermath of that. I'm so scared.

My classes for my second semester of college starts this Monday, so I have to go back to campus which is two hours away from my home while all of this is going on. I hope to God that I don't go to jail. This can either play out as a misdemeanor or a felony. I am very inexperienced and clueless about all of this, so I really have no idea what is to happen. Please pray.

My brother was hurt at wrestling practice and did worse than break his foot. He had surgery last Friday and will be casted until April.

My mom's unemployment ran out in December and her knees are much worse. She can hardly walk through Wal-Mart to grocery shop. How the hell is she going to be able to work a legit job to earn enough to support her family?

I'm taking many more credit hours this semester than last. It makes me nervous, but I may be able to do it.

They guy I really like may possibly like my best friend. Awesome.

I've just felt that depression has overcome me this Christmas break. I literally just lay in bed all day.

I don't know what else I can do. 

I'm drowning.
I'm losing.
I'm tired of trying,

I'll give in and be cliché: I'm Entering The Next Chapter Of My Life.

Odie♥.

So, tomorrow morning I leave for college. I have been beyond excited for the last few months, but now that it's creeping up I'm getting a bit nervous. 

I'm really glad my best friend is going as well--it eases my nerves a little. One of the main things I am most upset about is leaving my dog :'( 


I'm very eager to meet my suite mates in person; we've been talking through Facebook, but I have already promised them that I will be much more introverted and shy in person. ;)

My bedroom is bare now. My mother won't come in here anymore because she starts crying. *sigh* It's actually kind of depressing. Heh.

I got on that "rate your professor" site and checked out my professors for this semester. ... Oh. My. God. My Political Life professor and the class both sound horrid :/ I'll try to do my best and get through it though. Wish me luck!

I just wanted to post about my departure. So I really don't have much else to say at the moment.

And don't think I have forgotten about the pictures from Chicago. I have them.. I'll try to upload them on here this weekend or something if I'm not too busy :)

Ciao.

-LG♥.

Road Trip..!

So, my best friend and I are going on a road trip to Chicago in two days (we leave Tuesday morning). I'm so excited. I haven't been to Chicago in six years, so I am beyond eager to see and stay in the city again before we leave to start college.


My goal is to take lots of photos, so that I can post them on here and Instagram :] We'll see how well I do :D


Check this out!: Overcoming The Past


Also, check out the twelve photos I do have on Instagram so far ;) Username: foreverava


-LG♥.

Nothing to say.

Honestly, I don't really have anything to say. I just feel bad for not blogging in like a year--literally--so I'm trying my best to kind of staying in the routine of blogging every so often. .. Not that any of you care anyways, right? There is a whole 4 of you reading this? .. ha, not really, but that's how it feels.




Well I just got out of the shower about an hour ago and I have been getting ready since then. Myself and a few friends are going to the movies tonight to see the movie Katy Perry: Part Of Me 3D . I am SO stoked!! I love Katy Perry and I can't wait to see the movie :')


I know, you feel as if you have been jipped of a post. Sorry, but this is all. For now that is.


And definitely check this out! --> Overcoming The Past

Eyes shed tears.

rage. 


Passion. 


HEARTACHE. 

f e a r.

Love.




wishful thinking.

Sadness.

t e a r s.

You think I would have died.

Have you heard the news? That I am the worst blogger ever? Oh my gosh, you have heard! It is my most recent title. :|

Anyways. Yes, I have finally returned to this fabulous site. I feel that I am quite different than from who I was one year ago. .. Who am I kidding. Of course I am different from a year ago. Everyone is. We all grow and change--whether it is for the worse or the better.

So much has happened in the last 300+ days. Fights, make-ups, fights, firsts, graduating, heartbreak, fights, drama. It is ridiculous. I hate drama. Simple as that. I have finally decided to cut off the friendship of the person who is creating it. She was one of my close friends.. and it hurt, and it was very hard. But then again, she was the one who hurt me. It is just time to grow up and move on.

I will be attending college mid-August. I'm. So. Stoked!! I have also started these new workout routines, which I love. But I am soo soo soo sore. :/ meh. And I discovered these two girls on YouTube: Tessa (Meekakitty) and Shawna (Nanalew). Hil-aiiir-yus. Check them out if you haven't already.
I did read the Hunger Games wayyy before the movie came out, and I love them both!♥. Fabulous, fabulous.

I have started writing again. I stopped a while ago. I guess I just wasn't inspired. But I'm back to putting letters to create words, which develop into phrases and sentences. Soon leading to paragraphs and plots that  begin to play out the lovely thoughts and pictures in my head.. So yea :) .... I am not majoring in English any longer either. I'm going for Accounting. Woohoo!

Well this is all.. for now. 

Oh! READ THIS ---> Overcoming The Past