Blink182 -- Angels&Airwaves

Well, I've been spending my days with my two best friends. This summer has flown by. I cannot believe it is now August. I begin my senior year on the 22nd; Oh jeeze. I'm excited though:] 

This book was fantastic.

I recently finished a bout I was required to finish this summer for AP Lit. called The Road by Cormac McCarthy. 

I highly recommend whoever has not read this to read it. It's worth the while. I might see the movie now that I have finished it. I'm sure it will be no where near as great as the book though. ;)

The best news that I want to share in this post is that I'm going to a Blink-182 concert August 21st. I'm. So. Stoked. ..!!! 

I adore this band, and Tom DeLonge<3. He is just amazingg because he's apart of blink182 and angels&airwaves<333. 
ha, sorry, i'm excited.


That's really the only 'cool' thing I have to tell you right now.. besides the fact that someone sat or stepped on my camera. I died a little when I saw it :\ heh. And when my friends and I went swimming, none of us wore sunscreen and I am extremely burnt. My face is red, sore, and pealing and my shoulders have blisters. It's awesome.. :P


LG.

The Eiffel Tower. Columbia. Senior Journal.

One of my goals was to create a blog this year--Check. How about maintain it and post consecutively--Ehh..Fail? :P 

Anyways, my best friend, Kenzie got back from Europe last week. I missed her soo much! But she's back now and my other best friend Kelsie, I've spoken about her before on here,Kenzie and I spent the entire day together. It was just one of those perfect kind of days.I wish i had a thousand more like that:] She told us all of her stories and showed us hundreds of photos, which all of them were beautiful. She also brought Kelsie and I back these gorgeous diamond-studded Eiffel Tower bracelets from France

I also bought my journal at the beginning of the summer--I cannot remember if I already told you guys about that. It's a simple black leather one. I figures that it would capture the type of person I am now when I look back on it years from now. I promise, I am doing so much better at keeping entries in there than on here, so it was not a total waste. Heh.

About a week and a half ago I received my first papers from Columbia. I was beyond excited and they were just for information. But Columbia knows I exist without having to send my information to them first:) It completely made my week.

I feel like there is so much more to tell you guys but I cannot think of any of it at the moment. Bleh. I also had a few photos I wanted to add, but I forgot my camera. I'm sorry I'm such a terrible blogger sometimes ;) Ha. 

Ciao, LG -x- 

I'm sorry.

Growing Up

I am officially a senior. One more year of school left before I am a graduate ready to begin college. It is so surreal, a bit of my senior friends are gone now. Some I most likely will not see again, others I may run into here and there. Sad, but it’s reality. I have decided that this summer I am buying a journal strictly for entries over this summer and senior year. Pictures will be put in it as well. I figured it would be a fun project to do that was not too complicated.

My internet service has been cut for right now, so I’ll be updating when I can. This summer I have homework to complete during June, July, and the beginning of August for AP Literature, AP Psychology, and summer Government. Most of it isn’t too bad, but there are so many books I am required to read for AP Lit. but I am looking forward to it. I love to read, and I have been meaning to catch up on reading my classics. It is also an excuse to do some major book shopping in the next few weeks. I’m on my music spree right now too. I have not added any new songs to my iTunes in such a long while. It’s actually quite upsetting, hah.

I’ve been thinking about college often, lately. My dream of Columbia still stands, but being realistic, I’m starting to really like the idea of Duke. North Carolina? Hmm, it’s one of the places I have always wanted to go to. Maybe it could work out. Or maybe I will just chose Huntington. That’s where my best friend will be. I’m not afraid to leave home... I’m just not ready to leave her yet. I’m not sure what I would do without her. I think about this all the time. It upsets me—I use to be so sure of what I wanted and where I wanted to go. Now I am confused and nervous that I will make the wrong choice.

Observation for the night.

So many thoughts rush and flood your mind at once during a time of panic. I experienced something similar to this today. If there happened to be a disaster, and you needed to find shelter, what would you grab just incase there was nearly nothing to come back to?


You know what went through my mind?: iTouch, Laptop, Journal, Purse(has everything else that's small that I needed day to day)and my savings box. Now, all of this easily fits in my laptop bag and my purse, so I was able to make it convenient. But while I was getting these materialistic items, my mom was worried about getting the dogs and contacting others. She was being a mom--worrying about and considering the things that matter.


It made me realize how selfish and materialistic I actually am.

Absolutely miserable..

The past two weeks my health has been down. I've caught some kind of viral infection I suppose. I guess there's a possibility that it may have something to do with getting my four wisdom teeth out.


I am currently at home hacking in my bed since my manger told me to go home and rest. One of my good friends was working with me today and she came into the break room to check on me right when I spewEd. Yaay. :P


I'm tired of this sickness. I've had it long enough. Lately I have been coughing so hard that the pressure has caused me to have 5 nose bleeds in two days. That is a fun time right there.. Coughing up blood worried me a bit though :/


But yes, this is partly why I've yet to up date my blog with much of anything lately. I apologize.

Heavy lids slide shut. Feet dangle off the bed, arms wrapped tightly against the chest. The box-fan is set on 'low' emitting a soft humming sound throughout the room. The cat is curled into a small ball on the computer chair decorating the material with her loose hairs. The whole house is nearly dead silent. The soft snores of the sleeping dog travel down the hall. Aching limbs and a glistening forehead are a reminder that it's not a relaxing afternoon, but a stay-home-from-school sick day. 

Happy Mother's Day :]


Mother's are special. Each and every one of them. Some are recognized more for all the hard work they do than others, but they all should deserve to know how great and special they are.


Happy mother's day mom, I love you♥.

35 Things ...

... About me:
1. My favorite colors are black, blue, and purple. 
2. I love NYC<3.
3. I do not support gays and lesbians, but I will respect them as an individual. 
4. I own two dogs. 
5. I want to be a writer but I'm afraid of showing my work--exposing myself. It's a personal problem I struggle with. 
6. I am a Christian and believe that Jesus Christ is my savior. 
7. My life revolves around music. 
8. I am a Scorpio. 
9. Academically I am an overachiever. 
10. I have a slight case of OCD and tend to be a perfectionist. 
11. I will see ADTR in concert before I die. 
12. I am currently writing this list on the bus on our way to our state contest for concert choir. 
13. I adore, admire, am inspired by, and absolutely love my best friend. She is one of the greatest people I know. 
14. I'm trying to be a better person. 
15. Aside from what I just said..I tend to judge people before I know them..often. 
16. I love to write. 
17. I used to love drawing. I was in an independent art study but I have not really been into drawing since eighth grade. 
18. I love my brother even though we act like we don't care. 
19. My mom and I's personalities clash often but she's my pillar. I'd be completely lost without her. 
20. Blue eyes are my favorite. 
21. I hate country music. 
22. I am a big-city kind of person. 
23. To dislike or segregate someone because of the color of their skin is ridiculous and pathetic. 
24. I love converse and my Nikes.
 :)
25. I love the smell of fresh cut grass. 
26. My favorite kind of pop-tart is chocolate chip. 
27. Colombia University is my dream school. Ivy League♥
28. I like the dark. 
29. I'm not a people-person. 
30. I anticipate graduation, but I will miss high school once it's gone. 
31.My favorite numbers are 7, 11, & 20
32. Oreos are fantastic. 
33. I dislike white chocolate. 
34. I love rain. Rainy days are the best. 
35. N.W.<33.:) <-- (as of July 20, 2012)


I'm am now on the bus once again, on out way home from state contest. We got a I !! We have champion voices ;)


Until next time, LG. 

Ouch.

I am probably thee worst blogger ever. Heh. Sorry guys.
I've been gone so long because I've been bed ridden. I got all four of my wisdom teeth out and the surgeon said that genetically my mouth is small, so he had to go and cut into my muscle. My God, it hurts badly. I have a high pain tolerance--very high--and I've been doing well for the past few days but this morning I woke up on tears. Yay. One more reason for my face to be puffy, though it's already swollen twice it's size. I went to my brothers confirmation party on Friday and his actual confirmation on Saturday but that's all I was allowed to move for, since it was important. But today my mom is letting go to a movie with my two best friends :) we are going to see Water For Elephants--not my first choice of movie but at least I'm getting out of the house.

Busy weekend is winding to an end..

Yeea, so I was all caught up in the convention that I kind of forgot to really take any pictures. I have several videos which are hilarious, but I am most positive that my friends would not appreciate if I posted them ;) ha.[I would not anyway; they are quite embarrassing.]

But on Friday when I got home, I was completely exhausted from staying up and having to be up early friday morning. My mom had me go to Wal-Mart with her so that I wouldn't fall asleep, wasting away the rest of my Friday. A good thing came out of the trip, though. Mother bought me the camera I have been wanting badly:

The touchscreen is entertaining. Ha:]

Saturday, I got up at 6am, got ready and headed to my school for the ACT.. Yea!!... :\ I feel mentally tired and not as smart. It was my first ACT, though, so hopefully I did not do as badly as a feel. Once I got home, my mom and I went to this store to pick out a remembering antique for one of my friends--his grandmother just died. That is like the fourth close death around me in the past 2 or so weeks.I am bad luck. heh.I also got:

I thought it was pretty. I love coffee and pretty much and type of coffee drink, therefore I love to buy different types of mugs. Odd--I suppose.

We spent the entire day together driving around and doing stupid little things, like we spent some time at the library then went to the Root Beer Stand. It was very nice since we have not done anything like that in a long while. Once I got home I decided to put off my homework even longer, which is a lot since I missed Thursday and Friday because of Convention, to draw on my whiteboard instead:

Believe in love<3.

Well, that was a sliver of my weekend. My life sounds absolutely thrilling, huh? ;)

-Lg-

My weekend begins Wednesday.. :]

This Thursday and Friday I will be spending my time in Columbus at the Beta Convention with my fellow Beta members. Last year, my sophomore year, was the first year I had attended--you have to be at least a sophomore to be accepted into the club in the first place. It was a pretty neat experience to see, with being mixed in with a number of various Beta members from several other schools. There are competions we compete in to earn points for our school and hang out in this huge hotel. To make the two days even better, my room mates are my two best friends :) woo! I'm not exactly sure if there is really all that much to take pictures of to document the trip, but I will for you guys if I find anything interesting.


But yes, we leave Thursday morning and return home Friday night. This leaving us Beta members with Wednesday being our last day of school this week. ..I am most positive that I can deal with this concept ;)our candadiate won a state position last year. Lets hope we can win one again this year..!

Prom dress[: ..woo!:P

Loved ones will eventually pass whether we want them to or not..

Remember my guy friend with the mom who had breast cancer? Well, she passed away last night. It was heartbreaking to hear of the news because she is one of the most positive, kindest, and optimistic people I knew. I feel terrible for her son--my close friend. He never ever shows his true emotions. Not even when his stepdad died. But last night I saw him cry for the first time in the eight years that I have known him.


I stayed up nearly all night with him, allowing him to release all of his pent up emotions and sorrow. I was literally dragging myself out of bed this morning for school since i had received roughly a maximum of two hours of sleep, but it was absolutely worth it. On my part: It's nice to be needed once in a while. On his part: it is nice to see how much someone cares for you every once in a while too. I'm glad that I was the person who reminded him that he does have friends who truly do care for and love him. ..He forgets that sometimes.


Rest in peace, Heather. You are loved very very much.


LG-x-

peace(: ...

So, I had my District 3 Contest last week with the concert choir. We received a I!! It was exciting. The concert choir hadn't getten a one for the past few years. Finally, this year was the year we got it :D So, in April, we will be going to state. Woo.


Also, this coming Monday is not only the first day of my spring break, but also the day of mine and my best friend's college visit. I am stoked! Annnd I get to spend all Friday with another one of my favorite people.


It's nice to have life go a tad smoothly for once. Even if it is for just a little while.


Also, sorry for being so skimpy and short with my posts and not keeping up with your guys'. I'm trying, I will sometime soon. Too much is going on at the moment. Hopefully I will catch up this coming week over break. But I am going now because I just got home and really really should start my homework.


:]lg.

Cancer is a disgusting thing.

I just received news that one of my friend's father just died about an hour ago after a long battle with cancer. It makes my stomach sick to see so many close loved ones leave us because of cancer. The anniversary of my grandpa's death is approaching on the 17th of this month. I have grown to hate St. Patricks day because it reminds me of what I no longer have. I still remember that day in fourth grade when I was called out of class because my mother was waiting on the other end of the phone line in the office with devastating news.


My close guy friend's mother has been fighting breast cancer for years. She beat it, but it has recently come back stronger than ever. In the worst level possible, she is just expected to die anytime now. Her husband died about three weeks ago from a heart attack in their hotel room while they were in Illinois for her chemo treatment. How horrible must that have been for her. I feel absolutely terrible for their family and constantly pray for her.


But please, pray for my friend who lost her father tonight and for my other friend who lost his step-dad and is in the process of losing his mother next. Also please keep my family in mind. My mom has become greatly emotional lately and going through little epiosodes of depression as the death anniversary of my grandpa approaches. She loved her father more than anything--he was her world as she was growing up.
Thank you.


God Bless.

I apologize for disappearing for roughly two weeks. I have been pretty busy and stressed about many different things, and plus, my internet was shut of for about a week. Awesome. But it's whatever. It's back on now and I'm looking past it.


I'm more focused on a college visit I will be doing durning the week of March 20. I am stoked to see the campus and be in the 'College Atmosphere.' I have been looking forward to college for years now. I will be going with my MOST best friend and our mothers which make it much more exciting. 
I also have a Beta Convention to look forward to, the District 3 Contest for choir, and the ACT; I also recently received a promotion at work so I have been working on several tests and I have to be interviewed twice before I can officially be promoted. I have made major progress on my novel as well. So much has been done and is happening and we are only a few day into March. 


I just got home a while ago from church. I stayed over at my best friends house last night. She came into town and we went shopping--not the kind where you freak over a handbag or something, but for ingredients. We made Pico de Gallo:

[Here we are only on the second step. 

It looks much like salsa when it was complete.]

After the salsa was finished, we started Funfetti Cupcakes and made Fruit Slushies from a recipe I got out of my Seventeen magazine, Ha. The salsa tastes amazing and the cupcakes were very good, but the slushies were uhh..kind of a fail. At least we tried :))

But yes, my weekend was great :] And now I should get off here and start my Anecdote Paper. Wooo.

The feeling of accomplishment.

So, my last post was kind of the opposite of this one's title. I have been working on a short story for a while now and I have finally completed it. I was extremely pleased with it and myself. I even worked up the nerve to give my second revised draft to my best friend who agreed to be my beta.


I got the draft back today, so I have begun my sort-of-final draft. ha. I am just proud of myself for finishing this. Once it is at its best and polished form, it will go into my portfolio for the semester grade in creative writing, and it will also be submitted into a writing contest at a nearby university. Wish me luck.

Nothing.

I feel as if I am making zero accomplishments, like I am just living day to day in a haze. Time is running out; it's being wasted.. I hate this feeling.

Trapped.

Trapped inside my house for three days was horrible. I had a lot of time on my hands since I decided to be a diligent student and finish five of my papers on Monday. To pass the time, I wrote a lot while listening to my ipod. Quite dark poems and angry words scrawled across the pages without me really noticing. After taking a second to see what I had begun creating, I was taken back. Such bad, dark things I wrote. Even I myself had not realized how much I had actually kept pent up inside.


This past week has been not well. The past couple of weeks my attitude and irritability has been not well. Many things continue to aggravate me. I just want to yell at anyone who even speaks to me. Healthy, right? I just have this ongoing feeling of anger and frustration. Being stuck in a house with my brother, whose only goal in life is to make mine miserable and to see how pissed off he can get me,just adds on to it all.


And I am stuck here with no escape. No where to run and shield myself for a little while. I am stuck with my brother, with idiot so-called friends, school stress, work stress,self inflicted stress (damn perfectionism).. I'm trapping myself in my own mind with my own cruel thoughts. Maybe it's unintentional that I am cornering myself here, or maybe on a subconscious level it is just one more way I chose to make myself suffer.

Ice Storm.

Last night, we had this huge ice storm. On top of the ice, mother nature decided to add about 5 or so inches. So of course school was cancelled this morning around 5:37AM. Tonight is suppose to be much much more worse.. I am not complaining, though, I have two big papers to write for english and any extra time is welcomed. :P I've just began watching the series One Tree Hill. I absolutely love it. I am halfway through with the second season and already have received the third season for when I finish. I wishhh so badly that I could watch my episodes instead of writing these papers :\ ..


I am also reading this amazing book, Salem Falls. It is extremely well written with an interesting plot. You should check it out--Jodi Picoult's books are always brilliant. But yes, I was reading this book last night, curled up in my comforter and plush blanket nice and warm, and my mother starts to call my name.. over and over and. over. and. over. She claimed that it was extremely important that I came to her. Finally, I dropped my book down next to me and grudgingly got up to see what was so damn important. I got up to freeze to death to watch it rain and snow at the same time outside. Oh mother..


And THAT is as exciting as my night had got..
I do work tonight though; driving on these roads will be interesting.

Behind The Facade

At school; Around friends:
Crazy-fun personality,
Smiley,
Slightly hyper,
Always has a witty comeback.
I am who I would like to be.


Alone; By myself:
Quiet.
Unsure.
Happy? Not quite.
Empty, Alone is what I feel inside.


The music is my escape.


Why do I feel this way?
Almost like a depression sometimes.
I feel like I want to cry,
Even though I really don't know why.


I feel alone.
When friends ask, I retreat back.
I don't know if I want help,
I think I'd prefer to weather it alone.
Suffer in silence
Is my kind of type, you know?

I go to sleep, to start a new day.

The pattern repeats.

I pick out the mask,

That I'll wear that day.

Well, wasn't today terrible.

Once again I had one of those nights where you just think, "Why? Why am I here if the only purpose for my existence is to get screwed over, All. The. Time.?"

l♥ve this.

I should probably be sleeping..

I thought about you tonight.. well, I am thinking about you now.
You continue to cross my mind lately. I admit, I'm falling for you.
Stupidly falling for you. I do not want to, I try to tell myself
that these are just silly feelings and will pass by quickly. But
here you are floating around in my thoughts.
It's not like anything will ever happen between us. There's far too
much distance that separates us. It makes my heart ache to think about it.
Come back..please.

A few thoughts throughout the school day:

Yesterday, everyone hoped that today school would be cancelled because it was said that we were to accumulate three-six inches of snow. I knew we wouldn't be cancelled this morning, which we weren't--We were not even graced with a two-hour delay. It was not necessary though because it had not snowed over night... But as soon as my best friend, my brother, and I pulled into the school lot and parked, it started to snow. Of course it would happen like that. It is currently 9:11AM and I'm originally writing this post in English on notebook paper (I'm practicing my cursive. Like they say, Practice makes perfect) ..[; I'll be re-typing this once I get home (aka now.)


I am actually suppose to be reading at the moment, which I would love to be doing at this time, but unfortunately I forgot my book I am currently reading at home in the havoc of finishing my research report last night :/ *sighh*


This post is quite a pointless one. I am just passing the time until the class period is over, I suppose. I'm thinking that I'll just add a little here and there when I get chances throughout the day today.. In just this amount of time (7:30AM-9:13ishAM) the snowflakes have grown considerably larger. The snow is building up quite quickly! :] Maybe it will be appropriate to hope for an early dismissal.. I'll update later about that. In the mean time, I will sit hear recording my inner thoughts, in my journal that's off the record of course, while watching the snow as it falls softly...


It's now 10:39AM. On our video announcements, the crew had went around the school earlier this morning asking a variety of students and faculty members if they thought that we would have an early dismissal today. After all the hype that's being made over this issue, we will end up being in school for the full length. Awesome.


It is now 1:54PM. I just conquered my spanish test :P ... how exciting ;) You would think that there would be more intelligent students in Spanish III, but No. Heh. Maybe next year the people who don't take their classes seriously will drop out of the class..or at least flunk out. ha... My thoughts are normally much more interesting than these, I promise ;) The students next to me are talking about how pools are 20% pee and 10% snot :/ Eww. Dear Spanish class, ..please end soon.


2:20PM: Seventh period class, Chemistry, is interesting I suppose, but it's the largest class I have all day. Since there are a lot of students in it, you'd think there was more of a chance of having people you like in there, but once again: No. My class is filled with a large amount of loud, annoying people. It gives me a headache :\


So no, we did not have an early dismissal. Darn :| but the roads were horrible. The school officials had state patrols lined outside to make sure no one got into wrecks and parents were furious that we weren't released early. Overall, good/interesting day. ..Well, maybe not from the perspective I have given you (heh) but to me it was ;) I'm going to stop typing now, though, because this post is too long for me to be talking about absolutely nothing important :P ....

I can finally breathe [:

Once upon a time, I signed up for an Advance Placement College Course Class for English. The  evil witch-teacher assigned the class of innocent victims a horrid research project that would take 4 months to complete--Four freaking months, I have been doing nothing but rough drafts, note cards, researching North Korea, and reading articles that are quite depressing..:/ blek. But, now, four months later, I have completed this challenging task with flying colors! Oh, I have so. So, tomorrow I will march into second period, slap my 47 page report down on my teacher's cluttered desk and walk to my seat as a free woman ;] ..(bahaha.).. to sit through one of her lectures..*mood deflates a little* oh well. :))) I am just excited that it is finally complete! Oh! And I shall live happily ever after :D .. well not really, my life is far far from that, but at least I can look forward to that report being behind me for the rest for the school year. God, be with the Juniors who have to complete that horrid task this coming semester which starts next week.. HA. (:

The End.

New Blog Design?

I am not exactly sure if I like my new blog design..I think I might change it back to the original one. Hmm..I do not know yet.:P
I'm just trying to distract myself instead of doing my research paper :\


Oh, and by the way, I have a new favorite song that I have been listening to on repeat. Bleed by Hot Chelle Rae. I added it to my playlist over to the right. You should listen to it. It's quite amazing<3... well, at least it is to me. Also, there are two other new songs I added by Galt Aureus. They are quite lovely too. ..[:

Gone.

Doors open and close,
Silence fills the air.
It feels as if time has froze,
When I realize you're not there.
My heart seizes,
It blackens to coal.
My heart breaks to pieces,
It's no longer whole.
They say I loved you way too much,
That it wasn't good for my health.
I'd do anything to feel your touch,
I'd take you over any type of wealth.
       Why can't they all just see;
       You meant the world to me,

I just need somebody to talk to..

My week has been horrid. I would not mind sitting in a dark corner and going unnoticed to the outside world for a while. I kind of had hoped to talk to my best friend about it, which is big on account that she always has to drag everything out of me when there is something wrong, but guess what? She was not able to talk because she was out of town. Out of town seeing a movie and going out to eat with my other best friend and close friend.


I'm not really upset that they went without me because I had to work, and who am I to get upset because I was not included in one plan. Also, it's not their fault I was scheduled to work 4-11pm after school. It would have just been nice for them to tell me instead of trying to keep it from me so they would not 'hurt my feelings.' My feelings are hurt though, and I feel quite left out. Lately, I have had no life outside of school and work. I hate having to work all the time. I want to be an actual teenager for once...or at least more often than the small chances I actually do get. :/


I don't know. It is just a sad Friday. And I just need someone to talk to..I need my best friend to talk to :'(


...Lonely Girl.

♥.

Don't forget to love yourself.


I suppose I will just post this message as my 'message of the day.' ::
I was looking through pictures online with quotes written across them in quite creative manors. The one written above is one of the few I decided to save. Because it is true. Don't ever forget to love yourself. Though I do admit, I forget at times. We all do.

Two weeks have flown by.. D:

Two weeks ago, I had finished exams and happily welcomed Christmas break to begin. ... Where the hell did time go??? Gah. Tomorrow is back to school for me. There are so many people there that I do not want to see again, and I strongly enjoyed not having to stay up until 1-2ish in the morning finishing homework after working 4-10pm or 4-11pm after school >_<


The one thing I am looking forward to, though, is the end of first semester in about a week. Why is this? This is so because next semester is when my Creative Writing class begins, which I am stoked for! :]
Other than that exciting aspect of going back to school.. I'd rather to just not. Heh. Christmas break, start over.. please?

Until Next Time,

LG.