..Speaking of Suicide.

The other day while I was at work, I'm not sure if it was Tuesday or Wednesday, one of my friends and I were standing around talking.(Actually doing your job while at work is overrated xD) But boredom had taken over and neither of us were in that great of moods; I had had a terrible week previously, as did I this week.So our topics of discussion were slightly twisted in a crazy/sick kind of way--Sadistic. Heh. Whatever. Like one of my co-workers/friends and I talked about how we always hope that our manager will get hit by a buss and die, and that we will laugh if it would ever happen. ..Don't get this terrible idea of me though. I'm not really sadistic or that horrible. The manager is just  t h a t  mean. She's a total bitch.


But anyways, back to the first friend. We got into the topic of suicide. She asked me if I had ever thought about actually committing suicide before. That is a serious question that I had to actually think about. Im sure everyone has at least wondered what it would be like if they would just disappear. 'Cause you know, we all have those depressing times in our lives, right? But to actually commit suicide.. that's something big.


I thought about it and decided that there had been times where I thought about doing it, but then the next day I would go to church and get preached to. I would feel bad about even considering the idea in the first place because I do believe in God and I believe Jesus Christ is my savior. And you know, I don't want to go to hell, heh. I just have some really bad depression ruts that I fall into often.


Don't get me wrong though, besides not working and talking about suicide, we actually do other things at work. An example would be: Harass the new workers, haha. jk... :P Nah.. we do screw around quite a bit though. My work friends are so different from my normal 'circle of friends' at school and who I have grown up with. I love them muy muchas♥(:!


This post was slightly pointless, but I thought I would share it since I haven't posted anything in a few days anyways. .. 


Oh.. Anyone with suicidal problems, or self injury, or addiction look up To Write Love On Her Arms,I love it so much. It's a great organization to present hope for people with those problems. I have a bracelet that says To Write Love On Her Arms. I wear it e v e r y d a y. Of course, I bought it from HOT TOPIC:D And I'm pretty sure tomorrow is National 'Write Love On Her Arms' day.So don't forget to write 'Love' on your arm(s) tomorrow in support of anyone you know who is suicidal, a cutter, has a drug addiction, an alcoholic,or uses/does any other self-injury tactic. Do it for yourself.

Until Next Time,

-Lonely Girl.